change…
its so crazy looking back at the past and seeing how much ive changed. like even just from freshman year of college. that wasnt even 4 years ago and i feel like i am a completely different person. back then all i cared about was what people though of me. i wanted to meet new people and have everybody know me and think i was cool and fun. i wanted to party alllll the time. day or night. monday or friday, it really didnt matter. i didnt care about school, didnt think about my future, didnt really care about anything that is actually important. these days, thank god, i really think i am on the right track. im not saying that i dont have some of those same tendencies but really, my priorities are straight. my most important factor is me. what can i do to make myself better. call it selfish or whatever but when you put yourself first, you are really able to work on yourself and become a much better person. im worried about what i can do to better myself right now. school, working, staying healthy. it doesnt just mean im putting everybody out, it just means that if i have the option of studying and going out and getting drunk, i am going to chose studying because in the long run thats what is going to make me better. i have been alive 22 years and i can honestly say i have lived. i have seen good times and bad, hard times and easy, times i thought i would never get over and times i thought life couldnt get any better. there is a lot i havnt experienced but i can honestly say i am very happy with the way my life has turned out thus far. right now, i want to make myself happy. i want to solidify the idea of a successful and bright future. i want to put in those long nights and early mornings so that when i make it, i can say that i worked for it. that right now is me being selfish. thats me growing up and thats me taking my life into my own hands and doing what i need to do to be the best i can be. daily prayer, hard work, and dedication is what it is going to take to make me everything i am destined to be.
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